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Footprints in Recovery has changed my life for the better. I will be
forever grateful to the program and Denise for planting
the seed that I needed to grow into the person my Higher
Power wanted me to be.
My life growing up was pretty normal. I lived in the
suburbs of Raleigh with my parents and sister. I never
went without and had a good life. My parents always made
sure my sister and I were taken care of. This life
however was not without internal controversy. I never
really felt I fit in anywhere. I was a people pleaser
and did whatever I needed to do to fit in. I tried
drinking and smoking pot the night after I graduated
from High School. I had a late start, some would say.
That led to skipping college and eventually dropping
out. I always wanted to do hair, and I thought this was
my chance!
I flew through Cosmetology school and was well on my way
to a wonderful career. I started working at a salon
after each school day and that is where I was introduced
to cocaine. I was always told to stay away from drugs,
especially "hard drugs." I was trying to find my path in
life and when I was high, I felt invincible and that I
was the best at whatever I did. It gave me instant
confidence.
It was always my dream to style hair for famous people,
especially rock bands! Right after I graduated
cosmetology school, I got a job doing hair for a
well-known Rock n Roll band. We toured all over the US
the drugs, sex, and rock n roll were my calling, or so I
thought. When the tour was finished for the summer, I
would return home and try to keep my hard partying
lifestyle going. I never had money and my parents never
understood why. This went on for 3 years. I received 2
DWIs, 1 possession of marijuana charge, numerous lost
friends, my weight fluctuated, and those were just a few
negative consequences. My relationship with my family
was insane, to say the least. That is where the drugs
and drinking brought me. I felt like a complete loser,
my dreams were lost and I did not know where to go from
here.
I was sentenced to inpatient treatment for my 2nd DWI.
My parents decided on Footprints in Recovery because of
the location and the overall program. I DID NOT WANT TO
GO. Let me make that very clear. I wanted to be happy,
healthy, and have money, however I knew that meant no
drugs or drinking ever again. The night before I arrived
I stayed up and did a whole 8ball of cocaine alone. I
did not know that would be the last time I used my drug.
I expected to do my 30 days and return home.
We arrived at the houses; I felt an overwhelming sense
of peace and comfort. After some coaxing from the ladies
and my parents, I walked in. I was welcomed with open
arms (literally). I did not like hugging at that time! I
started to get to know myself. My exterior matched my
interior at that time. Black and green hair, piercings
and black clothes because that's what I felt….dark.
There I learned addiction is a disease and until I
accept it, I cannot change it. I learned my Higher Power
is always there for me, I just needed to turn things
over. That was the best gift I could have ever received
from anyone. I am extremely grateful to my parents for
loving me enough to send me to Footprints. Their program
has truly changed my life!
I have worked very hard on my recovery these past few
years. I got involved with Narcotics Anonymous and did
what the program suggested. I changed all my people,
places, and things. I relocated to the Outer Banks after
falling in love with it. I felt safe here. My family and
I are closer today, than we ever have. I now work at a
fantastic salon, live with my 2 cats and my boyfriend
who is also in recovery. My clean date is January 31,
2008.
As of today, I still cannot legally drive. It is a
consequence I must still deal with. I know soon enough,
if I keep doing what I am doing that I will be legal
again! That is one of the reasons I still give back to
Footprints. I lead a 12 Step class there for a little
over a year. You can only keep what you have by giving
it away. Footprints brought my life back to me
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